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I realised I lost a friend today. Not only that, but also felt a deep longing for someone I shouldn't have those feelings for. I know I cannot be everything to everyone and that I have flaws and that I don't quite understand myself either. I do not know who I am or what it feels like to be that girl I used to be anymore. I feel as though I'm adrift, my steps and thoughts can be classified as perfunctory. I am constantly sad, I cry and I feel alone.