Dawning

The realisation has dawned on me. I can never love you in the way you want to be loved. I can also never allow things to continue in this manner. I will always listen to the song and have fond memories of the past and also what could have been, but I cannot continue to live in the past. I deserve to be treated differently. Yes, a lot of things do not count in our favour. However, I will always love you. Too many moments are spent reminiscing [sp] about the past. I need to find and build on my own happiness and that does not necessarily include you. I've been through a few really crappy events in my life and I've had to be strong. I had to count on myself, but self acceptance has always been lacking. I doubt a lot of things in my life currently, mostly my friends, their honesty and the choices I've made on my own. If I had even one ounce of the confidence I have now, my future and also my present would be very different.