Scared

I don't think people are aware of how scared I am on a daily basis. Scared of making a mistake, being alone, losing a loved one or hearing the dreaded word, no, especially when it comes to my studies. Working and studying, both on a full time basis, is no small feat and I have to push myself way past the point of exhaustion to stay ahead. Granted I do procrastinate and I can be lazy sometimes, but I do try my best. I wonder if it is worth it sometimes? Yes, it is. Me not studying is like a fish in the absence of water. Facts excite me and I love learning new things. It doesn't even have to be in a formal environment. When you expand your mind, you expand your world and your experiences.