All I think about is you

And when the night falls in around me. I dont think I'll make it through. I'll use your light to guide the way 'cause all I think about is you

I have been told by friends that I make life very difficult for myself. That might be true. I loved a man for over two years and even though I dated during that time all I thought about was him. My heart was never my own as it always belonged to him. It was his to have and hold and to treasure or crush between his fingers. I'll never quite forget how he made me feel, how much I loved him and I guess that feeling has not dissipated yet. How do you let go when you loved someone with your entire being? With every single breath I dragged from my lungs and every single beat of my heart, I could not deny these feelings. Jealousy sets in when I think about him with someone else.

Never felt that I measured up to what he wanted in a woman and how I wished I could have been that to him. His one and only. Life is what it is, however. The beauty is that we find someone to love again if we open ourselves up to the possibility. I hope to find that someday and I hope I will get the opportunity to love that way again.